Ho Ho Ho! Its that time of the year again. Thats right, EXAM TIME! I feel like such a child whining about it, but i'm worried this time.
If you want to know if my exams are in the offing, these are the symptoms you should look for: intense laziness, sudden interest in my 'hobbies' and a reluctance to acknowledge the existence of any books that don't have at least one gory murder in them. But as the exam draws closer, my fear of failing(God forbid) overcomes all such weaker emotions and i hit the books.
This time its a little different though. I'm still studying(i'm not stupid you know) , but the fear is gone, and a cold indifference has taken its place. And that terrifies the hell outta me!
If i lose my drive, my will to move forward, whats to stop me from ending up as some loser in life? I don't want to sit on the sidelines watching my peers achieve success(i won't say 'achieve their goals' cos very few people, i'm sure, actually do so, and yet most people are happy with what they become). I don't want to be the 'poor guy' who couldn't cope with college, who ended up with some job that nobody else would take. You might say, 'But you are worried about your exams! Isn't that what you just confessed to?', and i'd say 'No', theres a difference. Sure, i' m concerned about my future, but when i think of my exams, .... Nothing!
This is what haunts me always, and makes me cry... at the futility of it all.
In fact, typing this is really getting me depressed. I think i'll need a little of my alleviating potion before i hit the books again. ;)
My usual antidote to this depression FYI is a book(a funny one, of course) or better yet an episode of FRIENDS. I'll just have to see which one i can get at such short notice.
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He he.. Happens everytime.. U start thinking about ONE exam and then slowly deviate into the future, jobs, etc etc, what might happen if I end up with a low grade blah blah.. Worsshhtt part is when u start thinking about ur miserable cycle test scores (referring to me).. U wonder, whats the point.. Anyway this course is gone and I cant do anything to my grade, lets just try to pass etc etc.. Put everything aside, concetrate on THAT particular exam.. pack the future n all.. Coz, whatever happens, happens for the best.. and we will be satisfied with whatever happens coz .. I dunno.. We usually just will be!
Ajit, you big Freak of Nature... WHAT THE EFF are YOU whining about??? Friggin you don't even KNOW what he's talking about... See that line, "If I lose my drive".. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I THOUGHT OF THAT!!! YOU, Ajit, STUDY before the exam... I, feel what Anirudh is referring to... NOTHING! I DON'T GIVE A F***
Thanks dude! You totally got what i was talking about. I guess we're more alike than i thought we were.
Oh and you might wanna stop harping about the OTHER blog all over cyberspace.
No offense Ajit, but you havta feel it to understand it. otherwise to you it'd just be words, nothing more.
Hello, children.
I sometimes wonder if we all end up communicating a little too much through the blogging world... ;-) Anyway. Anirudh, I cannot say I have felt exactly that, but I will admit I've been fairly close. I'm glad I love every single one of my subjects to death and the only two subjects I really dislike (Business English and Language - both of which are core subjects every semester) I am fairly good at. But the truth is, I used to get like this during exam time in school. And you all know I was not always a model student at PS... sigh. But I have faith in all of you guys. You're incredibly smart human beings (I mean this)... you'll survive. ;-)
K, looks like EVERY line I write, there's someone waiting to critisize it, which of course starts off with 'Gobaz, you big FREAK OF NATURE'!!
OK,Im going to stop being social for a while and stay away from the highly addictive blogspot and orkut.. Yeah, orkut too!! Mark my words..
Im predicting an 'Oh, Im so scared, Im so sorry gobaz, please be a bit more social..' level thing from Anand..:-)
And please stop acting Chandler.. You seem to be treating everyone in ur daily life as one of the characters in friends and pulling off wise cracks.. Its getting beyond limits.. I can see how inspired you are by him n all but CHILL!!
Oh and sorry.. I was never talking abt YOUR other blog.. I never knew you had one!
ok, Gobaz, you REALLY want to know why you DO define a Big Freak of Nature???? You want me to list all those CUPAXX Orkut things??? And you AGAIN missed the point of what Ani's saying here... And no, I ain't even going to waste an "ooh, I'm so scared" on you...
And yeah Ani... YOU have another blog too????
Ya i got one. just for the heck of it. started it a couple of days ago. i'll tell you later if you want. nothing earth-shattering, i assure you.
Ok, thats enough! The whole 'blame gobaz' thing was a big joke! Give it up! relax! I know you're as innocent as the driven snow. ;)
bleedin exam over no? Friggin write a new post!
BLOG!!!
well, what have I here, a fellow NITTian...nice blog,man...keep postin..and how did the exams go?
Exams were fine.
Looking at your blog(the 'lapis' remark), I'm guessing you're a 3rd year. Nice blog btw. I've heard of the light-in-the-shack incident from some of the other lapis guys who had been walking near it at the time.
And If you don't mind me asking, who exactly are you? I deduced the 'Varun' part from your email, but thats about all. When i do come to lapis, i usually hang about the 120-125 area.
Varun Ramamohan, lapis 107...production...
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