She looked at me and smiled and I thought my heart would melt. I love her more than life itself. The evenings on the beach are magical. I wish they'd never end. And there's no foreseeable reason that they should. I just have this sinking feeling... like the world's about to end. So i cling to her tighter than ever.
I love the fact that she knows me. I don't have to worry about saying weird things or coming on too strong or crossing any limits. She knows it all, what i'm going to do, what i'm going to say and what i'm thinking. I can't shock her, i can't surprise her, no matter what i do. I'm almost starting to get used it. The lack of paranoia and the apologies every few minutes. Isn't it lovely to take someone for granted. Intoxicating.
As we walk on the beach, against the wind, feet wet, i remember the times i wanted to die, the times i wondered why a compassionate god would allow sorrow and heartbreak, and i laughed. I laughed out loud. She looked at me, not with surprise. She just looked at me... and smiled. And laughed. Does she know that i've started praying again? Just in case a vengeful god would take her away from me. Does she know i've become vegetarian again? Just so that i'll live a few years longer... a few extra years with her. All the pointless things that one does to try and change the unchangeable...
I think i'll just lie down on this patch of pristine, white sand, and close my eyes for a while. I've never slept on the beach before. But why not? She's right here, watching over me.
And maybe if i'm lucky, i'll die right here, at peace with the world.
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I spotted this book about a month ago when I made one of my rare trips to Odyssey. And I was stunned. Did anyone else know there was a 6th b...
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This isn't really fiction is it? :).
Very much fiction chetna!! I'd never put up my true love stories where my big sister could see them, would i... ;D
I thought that was true, until i finished and then noticed the title (yeah too late, but hey thats me. I guess that wasn't much of an attention grabbing title)
Nevertheless beautiful!
@jass - Thanks man. I guess it's a good thing if you believed the whole thing, but alas, it's all a big fat story. I daydream a lot, very elaborate stuff, and that's one of my first attempts to put them down on paper. Just wanted to see how it would come out.
You know what they say, Cat one day, Elephant one day ;)
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