Boy, is it tough!

Its tough being a boy. Yes, it is.

Am i supposed to be silent and unfeeling? Is that what a man should be? Shouldn't a gentleman be gentle and considerate and gallant and chivalrous and polite and loads of other stuff?? Or is that all outmoded now? If a girl says, 'You're so nice!', does that make me a loser?

Its hard to strike a balance between sensitivity and machoism. I'm constantly torn between my conscience, which makes me jump every time somebody needs help(especially females) and my fear of being ridiculed by my friends for not sneering at them(which seems to be the current trend).

I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings, so i constantly apologise to anyone i come in contact with. But then i kick myself the rest of the day because i feel i might have come off as a wuss what with the number of times i do it. I know people are gritting their teeth and praying for that ass to leave them alone but i can't leave it to chance! I can't hope that nobody's feelings were hurt by what i said! I must know. Or if i can't, i gotta apologise for the possibility of it happening.

And i know exactly who is to blame for all this! Its Enid Blyton! Her books were the first place i learned the word 'Etiquette' and decided to try it out. What was a novelty, now causes me endless headaches! Much better to have been a neanderthal. no complications. Oh well! Too late for that now isn't it.