Shakers

You'd think that by this time I'd have cottoned on to the fact. After going through the same thing time and again over the last decade, it still hits me as a shock... when i lose a friend.

Considering that it's been happening since the 2nd standard, i should be expecting it. When i move to a different city, a different school, a different college, a different department and soon, a different country... whenever and wherever i move, i lose my existing friends.

Most of the time we're physically separated, which is inevitable i guess, though pianful nonetheless.... I've long since given up the dream of growing up with the same person, from kindergarten to graduate school... That kinda thing just doesn't happen outside the movies... But when we lose that "something", that common spark that we share... we drift apart... even though we're still physically in the same place we always used to be. We just suddenly stop talking, stop messaging. We start to get on each other's nerves. It gets awkward whenever we spot each other or happen to be in the same room.... It sucks. It breaks my heart to have to say goodbye... But that's the circle of life. Que sera sera (which i happen to think is a lousy saying)

The worst part is that i'm a totally un-sensitive guy. And by that i mean that when i think about it, i can never quite figure out someone's attitude towards me. So i never know how to behave with them. It's just basically a game of hit and miss, hoping i don't over-step any boundaries. I just need more practice, i guess... :)

I think the solution is obvious. I finish college, and go into business with my best pal. That should keep everyone together for a long time. There!! Problem solved!!